it was meant to be

Finally, it's a 4 months break and friends, let us find something for not to forget!.

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i was here, and it is really dark.there is nothing up and down and i just couldn't see it if there is something in front of me. the one hit wonder called sway form Bic Runga is playing and playing non stop never bored me. so as my cigarette, never ever it bored me and i feel like he is my wife, he always be my best friend in the bad and best days of my life. he's killing me too but i just couldn't let him go. i just love him with the love that you all will never understand. too bad for me.

dream, ambition and hope always be my wet blanket. i can't see myself in the years to come. just as the dark is covering 90 % of my view, just as the song hallucinating my wisdom, and the world suddenly become darker than anything i can imagine off.

i've been writing bout Raub, my place, my birth town, my palace and my home..but, i couldn't finish it. it was really hard..made me think that Raub is too much special that i can describe it in words. or, i guess..i'm still looking for my home, where my heart really is..

you really need to find your home, your peace, your love and freedom. even it's going to take years, you really need to find it.don't let yourself wandering, wondering in the middle of the road just like a flock of birds migrating for a safer place. home is where beyond just a safer place,not a check point where you can keep your luggage there.